Now that you cant make it to my bday outing is making me feel the lowest… Cant do anything now… If cant make it then its fine but at least just talk to me… Please? Why i asking u here in my blog… As if u would come here to read…
Sorry
Sorry ppl for the lag in updates… Using the phone to blog haha…. Its been close to 4 months since i talked to him… Now try oh so hard to contact him but failed… Why? Why is he like this? Why wont he pick up my calls?… Its the new year… Still he hvnt talk to me… On the last night of 2009, when i couldnt contact him, i was very sad… Sad until tears start dropping… Oh the pain… Pain of losing the person who have been there to help you… Be kind to you… And all the other good deeds he have done for you… Sad is not the right word to describe the feelings that is going through my mind…
Using my phone to blog
Hey people! Now using my phone to do everything in cyber space… Anyways wanted to tell you guys that my bday party is cancelled due to some reason… K i gtg now… Ciao
Birthday
Hey guys! I’m throwing my Birthday Party on the 9th of January 2010 to celebrate my 17th birthday… will send invites soo don’t worry haha… of course if u don’t get the invites and u wanna go, just tell me… its not that i do not want you to go, its maybe i forgotten about you, coz i got lots of friends, or i really don’t want you to come…. haha…. ciao…
bad
sorry for not updating… in my friends place using the com now… haha… during the camp… i wanted to talk to him but couldn’t so gave him something instead…. well thats all cant type soo much… my friend is just beside me… haha
ciao
bored and dead
hey people! now its 6:20 AM!!! lol… im in school sc room… i was suppose to go back to my aunts house… but i wanted to stay… haha… watched PA yesterday… quite okay la… btw PA stands for Parnormal Activities… okay i wanna go liao… haha… and OF COURSE IM TIRED!!!! haha….
quicky
sorry for not updating… my sis caught me using her lappy and now she put password…. now using my bro Mac quietly.. haha…. well i gtg now… shall update on recent event ASAP
moving on with life is hard
its really hard for me to move on… especially like this… in a state wher question marks and pen-knifes start appearing on my head… this is the 1st time im emo until like this…. seriously… i dont know what to do… he never respond to me… now im starting to regret stopping them to do the dare on me… well tonight i think i wanna sleep… coz im tired… well i shall stop here for now… good night… =’|
low in self-esteem
these past few days my self-esteem has shrunk from this big [ ] to this big [ ] the reasons are quite obvious really… the friendship which i cherish alot is now gone… and without any reason too… maybe there is, but the problem is that i have no idea what it is… now i’m having problems… not being to bond with my family, not being able to enjoy the time spent with my peers and clicks… not being able to enjoy life… i know that its only a small thing… but really… for me, loosing a friend without any explanation is not what i can accept. Its hard to comfort me when one lose a friend that he cherish their friendship alot… shall end here for now…
no ideas for tittles
yesterday night, i called stanley… asked him to call zg to ask why… but in the end he ask me to talk to him… of course i didn’t say anything… no feakin’ guts at all… damn myself… anyways, then he hung up… after which i typed him a long apology msg… hope he read it… i dont mind in he reply it or not… but the important thing is that he gets to read it.
going on to other topics now… school is over for the rest of the lvls… 4E 5N having Os… and complaints from sec 1s of class changing… life… things comes and goes… either in a perfect, good, bad or worst way… i have no idea what im talking about… haha… just wanna post something….
my blog has a second segment… click on to the “background information about me” to read what you have to know… main stuff about me… not all… if you wanna know everything about me, just know me, and let me know you better…. and if we are very close, you may know my secret… but thats not a promise… its depending who you are… =)
okay…. ciao for now…
